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Alpha
01:10
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Tainted
04:44
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I wanna fucking run away
I've lost my mind I can't stop laughing
everything is a disaster why am I breathing
I don't think there's anything inside
even looking with a thousand eyes
I've done all I can and I still feel it always
bloodied crying out in asylum hallways
why am I here? I'm dead
my life inside a coma
take me to the graves, take me to colma
I wanna fucking run away
love is such a tainted thing for me
screaming out cutting ties and ruining
every time that I try it just ends up like this
why can't I try why can't I get something out of it
I wanna fucking run away
I've lost my mind I can't stop laughing
everything is a disaster why am I breathing
I don't think there's anything inside
even looking with a thousand eyes
love is such a tainted thing for me
screaming out cutting ties and ruining
every time that I try it just ends up like this
why can't I try why can't I get something out of it
I wanna fucking run away
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Mind
04:10
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fuck me up like my mind was and leave me hanging from my feet
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Bleed Everywhere
05:10
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Loathe
04:29
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so tell me what's the problem
I know you have one with me
I know you fucking hate me
I know you fucking loathe me
I feel so fucking stupid
I wanna kill myself because of you
you're the reason
what the fuck is wrong?
everything feels like it's going away
I feel like I'm not to be
I don't, I don't know where I am
I'm so fucking alone
I know you fucking hate me
I know you fucking loathe me
I can't drown it out
all I hear is screaming
you can fucking burn
die
I want you to die
i'd do anything to keep myself away from you
anything to make sure we never connect
a bullet
a fucking bullet is the cure
oh I wanna kill you
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Always Inside
04:01
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you wish you knew anything more
you could see my inner workings
maybe peer inside and
see what you did to me
sometimes I wonder what it would be like
to have something inside
it's so lonely out here
my only choice is suicide
oh god I how missed you
a cold knife against my throat
you know just what to do
I know you want it too
if it mattered at all
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Borta Med Havet
08:09
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A Lonely Man's Note
07:52
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would it matter
if I went away?
if I disappeared tomorrow
would anything change?
I know it seems different
but I promise nothing is
I wish that you knew
what I did
I'm not really me anymore
I broke myself apart with
all these little things peek out
all these horrible scars
so if I were to go away
would it matter to you?
hasn't seemed that way
since the years have passed through
from clear to gray in an instant
from the glass to the pavement
I have
painted it red
take my life away
do you remember
the last thing you said to me?
disregarding my requests
and trying to put the blame on me
I can't believe it took me this long
to realize
I'm not someone to be loved
I'm just a punchline
so this is my note
of a lonely man
this is what
I leave you with
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I'm leaving you
on I go
goodbye, everyone
my life is ending very soon
I think we needed to communicate
try to find out what was wrong
and I think it's too late
I call this my swan song
if you have something to say
you better tell me right now
because I won't be here
if you hold it in too long
if you want me to be saved
you better help me right now
because I won't be here
so you should call them right now
the blast will echo all across
so many psyches
I'm going to do it
nobody can stop me
I'm going to do it
nobody can help me
you've done all you can
and for that I admire
but these cuts on my arms
spell out my fate in large letters
I say goodbye
I drift off now
no love to give
nothing to grasp onto
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vdm Yuba City, California
Varin Manas (aka vdm) primarily uses industrial, electronic, ambient and alternative rock influences dating back to his childhood to make what feels right - without conforming to one singular style. Continuously experimenting, he explores a vast spectrum of emotion ranging all the way from the dreary and melancholy to child-like, innocent happiness. ... more
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